Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Random Tuesday Thoughts - Why I Left Blogging

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I have to admit I have really missed blogging. I am now in a place where I think I can go back to it again. When I left, there was just so much going on in my life that I couldn't handle it all. Not that I have a handle on it all, but at least I am feeling better!

I was having regular panic attacks and having a really hard time all together. I was diagnosed with GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) and put on medication. The medication turned my life upside down in a bad way. It sucked the life out of me and I could barely get through a day. I was then told to stop the medicine incorrectly, which basically made me insane. I have to say that was the roughest patch of my life. It was also about the time I quit blogging.

My youngest couldn't walk. She was a little over a year at the time and only would get around on her knees. She is 2 now and running around thanks to weekly physical therapy. Her leg muscles were so weak she could not have done it on her own.

My 6 year old started having explosive melt downs, failing school and having mysterious pains in her toes and nails. After several doctors visits she was diagnosed with GAD as well. She too is on medication now and is thriving. This was such a hard decision to make being that she is only 6. But, it has turned out for the best and we have gotten our little girl back.

I started having major female problems. I think the birth of my fourth baby really sent my body into convulsions. After having a minor surgery to stop my cycle, I was also diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome), which also lead to my intolerance to sugar and carbs, and and did I forget to mention I am in perimenopause! Joy!

Of course there is always $MONEY$, bills, insurance etc. etc. etc.

Did I mention that wine has become my best friend???

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18 comments

  1. Holy cow! Welcome back :)

    Have a great RTT.
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  2. I also have an anxiety disorder, although I never got a specific diagnoses. There has been no worse feeling in my life then taking something to make my anxiety better that ended up making things worse. Congratulations on finding your way through to a better place.

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  3. As the rabbis say, wine makes people happy and joyous. And to this we all say, AMEN.

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  4. I am sooooo glad you are back!!!! man, I can so relate to your little one not walking! get this my little one that is 3 now he did not walk till he was a year and a half!!!!!!!!! I had to have him in physical therapy and everyone thought he was retarded, well sorta. All my other boys walked at 12 months or right before that so it was so new to me having a 18 month old and not walking!!!!! it was so hard but it all came down to him just doing it when he was ready. Now I can not keep up with him!!! LOL
    I am so glad your 2 girls and yourself are doing much better!!!! man sounds like we went through similar things!! I still have good and bad days, life at times sure sucks!!!!!!!! I am praying my hellish life get's better here real freaking soon, it's been 2 years of HELL!!!!!!!! let's just say due to finances, we have lost just about everything!! :( just sucks!! our marriage has been real rough through all of this. Anytime you want to talk I am here for ya! :) thanks for the compliments about my blog! :) and the boys! :) ya my oldest son will be 11 next month!!!!! they grow so fast!! I can't wait to see pictures of the girls!!! :) glad you are back!!!! :)

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  5. OMG, Is it really you, Lydia? I have missed you so! I saw your name on Twitter and almost screamed in excitement! I have missed you. It sounds like it has been a rough year. I am so sorry you had to go through all of that. I hope things are better now. I am so happy to see you again!

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  6. Happy RTT. It's nice to meet you for the first time. And wine is always a girl's best friend. Makes life tolorable.

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  7. ((HUGZ!!)) Lydia!!!!!!! So glad you're back! What a nice surprise and my first stop after having been forced offline for just over a week by my crappy computer. :) I'm so sorry you had to deal with all that stuff - glad you're OK and that you're back!! I sure missed you! :)

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  8. Im sorry things got so crazy for you but glad to see you back

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  9. WELCOME BACK!!! I have missed you even though we connected on FB!!

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  10. Just blog walking and stumbled upon your blog from blog frog. Welcome back to blogging! I think your blog is great and look forward to hearing more about you. Blogging can be therapeutic and fun. Have a great day!

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  11. This sounds EXACTLY like me. Totally and entirely. Glad you're feeling better. Hope to get to know you better too!!

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  12. Wow, you did have a lot going on. I know blogging can quickly become overwhelming, especially when you have real life going on. I've become a bad blogger lately with all of the health stuff going on with myself and the kids, it's hard to keep up with life AND my reader. Glad to see you back though, we missed you!

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  13. Hey you! when I saw the name of who left a comment on my blog, I wasn't sure if it was you. nice to see you back.

    I didn't know all that was going on with you. Glad it's getting better. Have a great day ♥♥♥

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  14. Holy Moly. You really had a lot on your hands. We had to put my oldest on meds for OCD last year. It wasn't an easy decision, but the best one for her and us. I'm so glad you've made your way back and that things are finally coming together for you. :) You've been missed.

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  15. I had wondered what happened... thanks for answering it for all the peeps who have missed you and your site. You were one of the first blogs I started following. I am glad everything is on track again - medicine, wine, therapy and all!

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  16. Yeah, well that all sounds awful. I'm just glad things are better and you are back! Just ease back into it slowly so you don't drive yourself crazy, pally. :) Life is rough and blogging is supposed to keep us sane.

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  17. I am happy to see you are blogging again! You made me very excited when I saw your comment on my blog!! I am sorry you have been going through so much! I am going to send you an email....Take care of yourself!!

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  18. I am beyond happy to see you back! Ive missed ur posts. I still don't have the right meds for this crap! The long term meds increase the anxiety or give me huge headaches. Then the lorazapam would knock me out. Ugh. Its so frustrating.

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