I have to admit I have really missed blogging. I am now in a place where I think I can go back to it again. When I left, there was just so much going on in my life that I couldn't handle it all. Not that I have a handle on it all, but at least I am feeling better!
I was having regular panic attacks and having a really hard time all together. I was diagnosed with GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) and put on medication. The medication turned my life upside down in a bad way. It sucked the life out of me and I could barely get through a day. I was then told to stop the medicine incorrectly, which basically made me insane. I have to say that was the roughest patch of my life. It was also about the time I quit blogging.
My youngest couldn't walk. She was a little over a year at the time and only would get around on her knees. She is 2 now and running around thanks to weekly physical therapy. Her leg muscles were so weak she could not have done it on her own.
My 6 year old started having explosive melt downs, failing school and having mysterious pains in her toes and nails. After several doctors visits she was diagnosed with GAD as well. She too is on medication now and is thriving. This was such a hard decision to make being that she is only 6. But, it has turned out for the best and we have gotten our little girl back.
I started having major female problems. I think the birth of my fourth baby really sent my body into convulsions. After having a minor surgery to stop my cycle, I was also diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome), which also lead to my intolerance to sugar and carbs, and and did I forget to mention I am in perimenopause! Joy!
Of course there is always $MONEY$, bills, insurance etc. etc. etc.
Did I mention that wine has become my best friend???
So, it has been awhile now since I stopped blogging. A lot has happened since then and I realized it was time to come back. For those of you who remember me, I missed you all! I missed the wonderful community of people that are out there. For those who are just reading for the first time, I am a married 36 year old Mom of four girls. My little monsters darlings are 10, 6, 3 and 2.
If I ever had any sanity at all, it is sure gone now.