There are so many lessons I learned this year through the hard times and many things I want to take from the struggles.
Doctors failed my family this year:
My 7 year old was unofficially diagnosed with being Bipolar. After putting her on some of the worst, life changing medicine ever he left for vacation. No one returned our calls. I found other doctors. She is back on the same medicines she was before. She still just has anxiety.
After fighting my depression and anxiety for the last 8 months my doctor basically told me there was nothing more she could do because "her treatment" didn't work. She wouldn't even consider other medications, even though I am clearly struggling.
The economy and health care has failed my family.
Sometimes friends aren't meant to be around forever. Some may just be given to you to help through certain times in your life.
I have lost myself.
I am way too hard on myself.
Instead of making New Year's Resolutions I just want to learn from past mistakes to make 2011 the best year ever.
I WILL find a new doctor this year that will listen to me and take my needs into consideration, not just their ego. I DESERVE to feel 100 percent and not just grateful for feeling better.
I WILL listen to my own instincts about my daughter. I will always know more about her than anyone.
I AM GRATEFUL to have found a job after a long year. I will use this bit of money wisely so that we don't have to struggle so much in the upcoming year. It will also help to pay some of our medical bills because of our awful health insurance.
I WILL forgive and stop hurting from being abandoned from my best friend of 20 years. We have moved into different places in life. I thought our bond was worth fighting for. I guess she didn't.
My husband will always be the best friend I could ever ask for. He has been my rock, my soft place to land, my security and through all the hard times has loved me unconditionally. I love him more than I could ever possibly say.
I WILL make time for me. I have lost myself in motherhood. I have lost all that is feminine about myself due to my responsibilities and lack of time. I WILL TAKE THE TIME FOR ME.
I WILL get back to a healthy weight. I will eat healthy and be a good example to my girls.
Since it is a new year I will start if off by not being so hard on myself.
I will go back to the things that give me joy and a sense of self - like my blog!!
I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL, BLESSED
AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR!
