It has been going on a year now since I have tried to conceive you. After much time I have found out that the birth control I have been taking for years has taken a toll on my body. I also found out that I have PCOS. I want you more than anything. The waiting is just the hardest part. I am not sure how I can love someone so much that I haven't even seen or met yet. I just know that with all my being I want to be your Mom.